[ it’s. like, in no way does he think kara shouldn’t be pissed off? but also he... can’t say he would go back and not kiss Lili.
... complicated. ]
It was kind of in the moment, so my timing was shit. And it’s something I should’ve talked to you about first. [ maybe a tiny part of him’s... ticked isn’t the word? would’ve liked both of them to come to him with that decision, not just have it filter down to him? but that feels unreasonable too. it’s not his relationship. ]
The time’s yours. Don’t worry, I’m not gonna be a part of anything so... [ that’s been made decently clear? just in terms of facts and how all their various worlds work. he shifts so he can put his hands in his pockets, and watches as kara makes the tea. ]
I wouldn’t do that. Take her away. Even if I fucked up elsewhere, don’t think I’d do that. I’d have made sure she didn’t run herself into the ground while she got you back.
I know it doesn’t. [ but hey, here they are. ] You can still trust I’ve got your back in getting out of here, and anything else... even if not with her. [ because he does, but... yeah. fair. ]
[ ray “perhaps i will surprise you... by stabbing you with this knife” ]
She doesn’t. S’what I’m saying. And that’s fine with me as well.
[ frown ]
Don’t sell yourself short here. Tell me to my face what you and Lili decided and what you want. Don’t let it filter down and be fine with that. Tell me.
[ ugh. he hates this - he doesn't want to be angry, he just wants to go back to his cabin, make sure lili's eaten something, and sleep for a while. turns out spending most of the night swinging your sword around, while injured, doesn't leave you feeling rested. how odd. ]
I told her that I know I can't keep her to myself forever... but I asked for this time, at least, before we leave here, to be just for us, because she died before I could give her a proper answer last time. So even if I have to share her someday, I wanted to have some time where it was just us, for as long as we could have it. That's all.
And if she wants to date someone else later, that's her decision, not mine.
And, I mean... [ he taps a knuckle against kara’s shoulder ] Stepping on that wasn’t what I wanted to do, but I did and I won’t again. Even if you’re making it sound like you’re not part of her decision-making process, what involves her involves you.
But don’t limit yourself to “just until we leave here” — I don’t think she’d be mad if you took all the time you wanted, or told her if you wanted that. Because if someone’s gonna ask for her without you, then she’d show them door in five seconds flat.
Give yourself some time without, y’know. All this bullshit going on around you. It ain’t selfish to ask for it.
Lili has to go home to deal with suitors until she finds someone suitable to marry. I have a war to fight that may continue for hundreds of years, and I can't just leave the citadel whenever I want.
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Look, I know. Or I know now?
[ it’s. like, in no way does he think kara shouldn’t be pissed off? but also he... can’t say he would go back and not kiss Lili.
... complicated. ]
It was kind of in the moment, so my timing was shit. And it’s something I should’ve talked to you about first. [ maybe a tiny part of him’s... ticked isn’t the word? would’ve liked both of them to come to him with that decision, not just have it filter down to him? but that feels unreasonable too. it’s not his relationship. ]
The time’s yours. Don’t worry, I’m not gonna be a part of anything so... [ that’s been made decently clear? just in terms of facts and how all their various worlds work. he shifts so he can put his hands in his pockets, and watches as kara makes the tea. ]
I wouldn’t do that. Take her away. Even if I fucked up elsewhere, don’t think I’d do that. I’d have made sure she didn’t run herself into the ground while she got you back.
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[ he's pretty confident of that much, at least. ]
That doesn't make it better, Ash. I trust her... but I trusted you, too.
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[ it’s? the truth? ]
I know it doesn’t. [ but hey, here they are. ] You can still trust I’ve got your back in getting out of here, and anything else... even if not with her. [ because he does, but... yeah. fair. ]
[ ray “perhaps i will surprise you... by stabbing you with this knife” ]
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I don't think I can trust you with Lili, but that's not really my decision, either. If she wants to try dating you, I won't stand in the way.
[ kara might be unhappy about it? but he won't stop them, if that's what lili wants. her happiness will always be more important than his own. ]
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She doesn’t. S’what I’m saying. And that’s fine with me as well.
[ frown ]
Don’t sell yourself short here. Tell me to my face what you and Lili decided and what you want. Don’t let it filter down and be fine with that. Tell me.
[ let him hear it face to face, kara. ]
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I told her that I know I can't keep her to myself forever... but I asked for this time, at least, before we leave here, to be just for us, because she died before I could give her a proper answer last time. So even if I have to share her someday, I wanted to have some time where it was just us, for as long as we could have it. That's all.
And if she wants to date someone else later, that's her decision, not mine.
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actually, ash just smiles. ]
Good to know.
And, I mean... [ he taps a knuckle against kara’s shoulder ] Stepping on that wasn’t what I wanted to do, but I did and I won’t again. Even if you’re making it sound like you’re not part of her decision-making process, what involves her involves you.
But don’t limit yourself to “just until we leave here” — I don’t think she’d be mad if you took all the time you wanted, or told her if you wanted that. Because if someone’s gonna ask for her without you, then she’d show them door in five seconds flat.
Give yourself some time without, y’know. All this bullshit going on around you. It ain’t selfish to ask for it.
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...We don't have that kind of time, outside of here.
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