has to think really hard about what the fuck ash is talking about]
... Oh. You mean that time she picked her temporary Priestess outfit? That was, what, seven years ago? Eight? I even told her she was pretty back then too.
She told me she doesn't like red, so I guess she remembers it. [ So. ] I kinda love that I told a god I hate gods, how's that for making an opinion known.
I'm curious about some of the shit Bril was spouting the other day. Figured it's better to hear about it from all angles, rather than just the... what? Many, but from one body?
You willing to talk, or am I gonna be wasting both our time here?
I don't really mind if you just go with Brilith's version... but sure, I guess.
[to be honest, if making everyone hate him is how brilith grounds herself here, agni sees no reason to stop it. her happiness has always mattered far more than his own.]
I mind. If you want to info gather, you do it right or you don’t do it at all.
[ more seriously though— ]
Why was she so determined to get herself killed on Saturday? She’s explained a bit if it — she’s “remembered’ things and the way she’s talking sounds like some sort of personality merge, but maybe I just don’t have enough years behind me to get why that means she wants to die.
... This is the only life you've led, right? Or, at least the only one you remember. Because you know you won't get a second chance, you make it count.
[...]
If you'd lived countless lives—born and then eventually died, over and over again—how much would any given life mean to you, do you think?
You said it yourself -- it's the only life I've had. I'm kinda attached to it. So how can I say how much life would mean to me? Even if I could, it's not like you need to have lived multiple times to be able to disregard lives entirely.
...
But that's it then? She's got so many lives kicking around in there it's rendering all of them pointless?
It was fine, once, but... eventually, her misfortunes accumulated. She's able to tolerate her losses when she believes it's the only life she'll have, but after she regains her memories, her mind can no longer cope with the burden.
For her, who's led countless lives that ended in misery, there's little hope left to hold onto—from her perspective, she's already seen from experience that it doesn't get better.
Well, he's heard a bit about this, but again? Better to get it from both angles. ]
Why does she remember past lives? Let alone have them, most people get a one and out and if you're lucky you avoid a one-way trip to Gehenna in the process.
... If you're not sent to Hell or to Paradise, your soul is eventually recycled to be used in a new life. So, she's not unique in that regard.
Being able to recall her past lives, though... that's because of the structure of her soul. Nowadays, humans' memories are retained in their body, but for Brilith, they're contained in her soul and thus carry over no matter which body she's in.
You've explained the whole death cycle where you're from, and I already figured it was different for Bril, and pretty abnormal if it's enough to send her into a suicidal spiral mid-trial. But not, y'know, why it's different for her.
... The only way to forcefully annul it would be to ask the God of Death to. [which agni won't do, and is thus one of the many things brilith is mad about.] Otherwise, it remains in effect as long as the conditions are fulfilled.
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[ He settles back down and closes his eyes. ]
Bril looks fine in blue, y'know.
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Yeah, Brilith is gorgeous in anything.
[where?? is this coming from???]
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She said you got sulky if she didn't wear red. Might wanna make that opinion nice and clear, or you'll both miss each other.
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[he
has to think really hard about what the fuck ash is talking about]
... Oh. You mean that time she picked her temporary Priestess outfit? That was, what, seven years ago? Eight? I even told her she was pretty back then too.
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She told me she doesn't like red, so I guess she remembers it. [ So. ] I kinda love that I told a god I hate gods, how's that for making an opinion known.
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[not sure what you're expecting from him here, ash!!]
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[ ... ]
I'm curious about some of the shit Bril was spouting the other day. Figured it's better to hear about it from all angles, rather than just the... what? Many, but from one body?
You willing to talk, or am I gonna be wasting both our time here?
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[to be honest, if making everyone hate him is how brilith grounds herself here, agni sees no reason to stop it. her happiness has always mattered far more than his own.]
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[ more seriously though— ]
Why was she so determined to get herself killed on Saturday? She’s explained a bit if it — she’s “remembered’ things and the way she’s talking sounds like some sort of personality merge, but maybe I just don’t have enough years behind me to get why that means she wants to die.
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... This is the only life you've led, right? Or, at least the only one you remember. Because you know you won't get a second chance, you make it count.
[...]
If you'd lived countless lives—born and then eventually died, over and over again—how much would any given life mean to you, do you think?
[this is really only the jumping point, but.]
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...
But that's it then? She's got so many lives kicking around in there it's rendering all of them pointless?
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It was fine, once, but... eventually, her misfortunes accumulated. She's able to tolerate her losses when she believes it's the only life she'll have, but after she regains her memories, her mind can no longer cope with the burden.
For her, who's led countless lives that ended in misery, there's little hope left to hold onto—from her perspective, she's already seen from experience that it doesn't get better.
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Well, he's heard a bit about this, but again? Better to get it from both angles. ]
Why does she remember past lives? Let alone have them, most people get a one and out and if you're lucky you avoid a one-way trip to Gehenna in the process.
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Being able to recall her past lives, though... that's because of the structure of her soul. Nowadays, humans' memories are retained in their body, but for Brilith, they're contained in her soul and thus carry over no matter which body she's in.
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You've explained the whole death cycle where you're from, and I already figured it was different for Bril, and pretty abnormal if it's enough to send her into a suicidal spiral mid-trial. But not, y'know, why it's different for her.
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Most souls from back then are gone, but hers is—protected.
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'Cause she summoned you?
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So? Why then?
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[before, you know. she started hating him.]
It's what protects her soul.
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The unbreakable sort of vow, I'm guessing. Otherwise she'd be gone, yeah?
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... Conditions? Okay sure, I guess for functional immortality there's gonna be hoops to jump through, but what sort of conditions?
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