Yes. It takes a lot of vigor and life force for your voice to cross the barrier between the human and god realms. It's too much for most to handle... I'm honestly not certain how I survived casting the spell twice.
Ah... It was just Agni again. There was a while that he stopped answering me altogether, and stopped coming to Atera. I think he was angry with me, because I yelled at him...
[ she. still isn't really sure what it was about, tbh. ]
When the sura attacked Atera, their leader dragged me away from the barrier stone. I tried to fight back, but she's far stronger than I am, even with my magic, and she disarmed me so easily... So when nothing else was working, I tried summoning him again.
I told you, I don't know for sure. The only way to see something like that is through a spell that's illegal, outside of executions. It's been seven years since I summoned him the second time, so... at the most, it's probably just a few years.
Of course I do. It may not be easy, but I'd rather spend my time doing something meaningful and protecting my people than focusing too much on how it hurts.
...I've done a few things for myself. [ she sounds defensive, voice small. ] But I can't just do what I want all the time. A priestess has to prioritize the people and gods she serves.
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You said it takes a lot out of you, literally. But... [ hearing a lot of people died, is. wow. ] It takes that much?
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Yes. It takes a lot of vigor and life force for your voice to cross the barrier between the human and god realms. It's too much for most to handle... I'm honestly not certain how I survived casting the spell twice.
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Twice?
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...Yes.
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What else were you summoning?
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[ she. still isn't really sure what it was about, tbh. ]
When the sura attacked Atera, their leader dragged me away from the barrier stone. I tried to fight back, but she's far stronger than I am, even with my magic, and she disarmed me so easily... So when nothing else was working, I tried summoning him again.
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So he let you burn through more of your life force to summon him again, because, what? He was having a tantrum?
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Both of you sound complicated, I'm not even gonna lie.
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I imagine it's always like that, when gods are involved.
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Probably. I'm starting to think you two are an especially complicated case though.
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Do you know how much of your life you've lost?
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[ he's right, she just doesn't know that at this point. ]
...No, but I don't know how much I had in the first place. To be honest with you, though, I probably don't have a lot left.
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... Like. Months, or single digit years, or...?
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[ lawd. ]
If it's just a few years, don't you want to... I dunno. See them out? With the situation you're in now?
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Of course I do. It may not be easy, but I'd rather spend my time doing something meaningful and protecting my people than focusing too much on how it hurts.
[ not that. she's very good at it. lmao. ]
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... Nah, like. How much of you have you given away to people? You could do something for you, hang what other people want.
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...I've done a few things for myself. [ she sounds defensive, voice small. ] But I can't just do what I want all the time. A priestess has to prioritize the people and gods she serves.
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...
[ he just raises an eyebrow. ] A few. Most people live to the extremes if they know they're running out of time.
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[ makes brilith get no joy until she drops dead. ]
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...It's not that bad, really.
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I mean. That's one thing you can do. But literally just not being a damn workaholic for a day counts.
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