Betrothal to a god means eternal rebirth, for as long as it holds true. If he would release me from it, I would be able to die and stay that way, for once.
...If you don't think I can accomplish it myself, Ash, you are mistaken.
So you just... get reborn and then remember all your past lives?
[ that's a heavy load to bear, huh. ]
I'd really prefer that you didn't. All of us would. [ It's the truth, but he's just saying the words now. ] Just, y'know. More people would still be dragged into it, if it wasn't apparent there was no killer.
It can take a while, but yes. As long as the betrothal is in effect, I will never be able to see either paradise or hell when I die. I'll just be reborn and start all over again.
...You all care so much about a woman who is no longer here. [ ash doesn't need to know that she's struggling to keep the brilith ruin of this lifetime in check. no one does. ] Would it help if I left you all a note? No one else would need to be involved.
... [ Man that's complicated. Would he want to keep clinging to his mom in that same way if he could? Not his birth mother, he doesn't really remember her. But...
He's not sure he would. ]
Yeah? [ well. i mean. that statement gives away a fair bit from phrasing alone. ] You're forgetting that if you've been in this state of mind since you got here, then we all care about-- [ And he points at Brilith and does a circle with his index finger. ]-- you, whole.
[ in a flare of anger, she hurls the question at him. as if she's ever had a choice? as if she prefers this sort of cursed existence?
...but a moment later it's gone, brilith reminds herself that ash can't really understand. no one here can, save agni, and she doesn't want anything more from him. ]
Call me what you want. I've had too many names for it to matter.
I'm just saying, people don't react positively to that kind of shit. You're asking why people didn't throw open their arms and welcome you to the party? From our perspective you just jumped in to throw yourself under the proverbial tram out of nowhere and you scared them.
There's two sides to everything. [ It all comes down to that "understanding" thing. Something she isn't too interested in helping with. ]
I'm not as powerful without my magic, and this body is still weaker than I'm used to... but I'll give you a good one, once this damn sedative wears off. You can be sure of that.
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...If you don't think I can accomplish it myself, Ash, you are mistaken.
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[ that's a heavy load to bear, huh. ]
I'd really prefer that you didn't. All of us would. [ It's the truth, but he's just saying the words now. ] Just, y'know. More people would still be dragged into it, if it wasn't apparent there was no killer.
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...You all care so much about a woman who is no longer here. [ ash doesn't need to know that she's struggling to keep the brilith ruin of this lifetime in check. no one does. ] Would it help if I left you all a note? No one else would need to be involved.
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He's not sure he would. ]
Yeah? [ well. i mean. that statement gives away a fair bit from phrasing alone. ] You're forgetting that if you've been in this state of mind since you got here, then we all care about-- [ And he points at Brilith and does a circle with his index finger. ]-- you, whole.
Those can be forged or messed with.
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And I suppose you'd refuse to let me go, were I to tell you myself before curfew.
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Yup. We're at a bit of a standstill, huh?
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[ in a flare of anger, she hurls the question at him. as if she's ever had a choice? as if she prefers this sort of cursed existence?
...but a moment later it's gone, brilith reminds herself that ash can't really understand. no one here can, save agni, and she doesn't want anything more from him. ]
Call me what you want. I've had too many names for it to matter.
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I'm just saying, people don't react positively to that kind of shit. You're asking why people didn't throw open their arms and welcome you to the party? From our perspective you just jumped in to throw yourself under the proverbial tram out of nowhere and you scared them.
There's two sides to everything. [ It all comes down to that "understanding" thing. Something she isn't too interested in helping with. ]
Bril it is then.
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[ this is getting frustrating. usually she has a better handle on her emotions than this... ]
What do you want from me, Ash?
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[ he leans forward in his seat, and stares her straight in the eyes. ]
Whatever you think, the Bril from earlier is a part of all of you now. And I like Bril.
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[ she doesn't shy away, meeting his gaze evenly, with a wry smile. ]
Are you so sure you'll like the "Bril" that I am now?
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[ beneath the surface, there's always something. He just grins back. This isn't the soft or polite Bril, no, but... ]
Dunno. You gonna let me find out?
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...how strange. ]
I don't expect you to give me a choice. You aren't the type to take no for an answer.
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Sure. I could do with a challenge.
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[ he’d said she had some good natural instincts before, yeah? that can’t have just vanished along with this change. The body’s the same, after all. ]
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[ but wow! she's looking forward to this, now. thanks, ash. ]
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[ fight club! fight club! fight club!! ]
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...Do you think there are others who would want to spar, too?
[ we could really do fight club and she'd be right there to try and kick his ass ]
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[ they could all FIGHT ]
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[ look at this hypocrite. calling someone else "the angry one" ]
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